It's getting worse

I don't feel any better. I can't talk to anyone for fear of them worrying

I'm sorry.

I wonder

I wonder when did my life become so pathetic. I guess I can't really blame anyone for it. I don't want it anymore.

I want to Die

I seriously do

Every single day, it's getting harder to wake up. Actually, it's the opposite statement: Every single day, it's getting harder to sleep. Living off 3 hours of sleep every day: I find myself wondering.

"What's wrong with me?"

I'm supposed to be happy. I have everything going right for me. I can have anything I want.

"Why am I not happy?"

A new year... the same old sad love song...

I wish you bluebirds in the spring, to give your heart a song to
sing,
And then a kiss, but more than this, I wish you love.
And in July a lemonade to cool you in some leafy glade,
I wish you health, and more than wealth, I wish you love.

My breaking heart and I agree that you and I could never be,
So with my best, my very best, I set you free.
I wish you shelter from the storm, a cozy fire to keep you warm,
But, most of all, when snowflakes fall, I wish you love.

I wish you shelter from the storm, a cozy fire to keep you warm,
Most of all, when snowflakes fall, hot time, I wish you love.
All kinds of love, a whole gang of love.

today and tomorrow... what next?

today was such a disaster... made lots of enemies today... got kicked out by someone.... How is it that everything i do tend to fail?....

Oh well, today wasn't fruitful either... Didn't see M today... and I think that someone's really really avoiding me... I mean to my blog readers, if there are any of you there, isn't it odd that a female close friend of mine would just first, see and sort of ignore me talking to another group of female friends; second, wound up mad at me a few hours later with which I have no idea why and third, ignore me til now... heheh. very convuluted sentence.....

oh well, til next time...

testing....

well, just trying out blogging... getting delusional again... organizing a game in 10 minutes.... hi!!! i'm delusional... and just chillin...